Sometimes rebuilding your life is just plain hard. Today's choices are not the choices I want and, try as I might, I can't steer things to go in the direction I want.
This post is not about whining. That would be unproductive. Instead, this post is about how I still need to work on being patient. Life is about grabbing opportunities but then it is about dealing with what it feels like when the opporunity doesn't work out the way you planned. It's about the twists and turns of life and how I need to get better at accepting and working through stuff I don't want. I try to stay positive and I try to break situations down so that I am not overwhelmed but honestly there are just times when life is terribly frustrating.
And that's all there is too it.
I need to prioritize and keep in mind what is really important: namely good health. I cannot stress myself out about things that remind me of another time; a time when I was a wife, a time when I didn't have to take care of everything myself.
|Backyard Garden By Kino|
Today I did reach out to others for help and that made things a bit better but I wanted to talk longer and I couldn't since work was on my desk and needed to be finished. Needless to say, I couldn't wait to get home and put the day behind me.
Then just as I reached the front door of my house, ready to close the door on the day's events, I opened the storm door and surprise, surprise...two unexpected gifts awaited me: a great friend had left a bag of plump juicy tomatoes from her garden (so yummy for dinner!!) and a bag of books to read!!
Bahama Mama...Jump Back Jack...You just never know....