When committing yourself to begin healing, you are taking an important step. You are in effect looking around yourself and saying that today's situation isn't working well for you and you are choosing to change.
I have found that it's a decision that can make you feel two contradictory emotions at the same time. On the one hand, you are feeling brave to decide to open yourself up to change but on the other hand, the act of opening yourself up to something new is scary and nerve wracking because it's unpredictable.
We all react differently to the loss of a loved one or a trauma in our lives. It's okay. You are in new territory but you aren't alone.
Isn't it funny how you can feel strong and scared in the same moment? But you can't allow that push-pull moment to overtake you and possibly stop you. If you think about change too much, then it might slow you down. It's much more important to keep the momentum going; to keep moving forward.
Simplifying can be the way to go when big things in your life are about to change it up.
Tell yourself that just for today you will not be afraid.
You will not be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful, what makes you laugh, what brings you peaceful feelings.
As you give to the world, so will the world give back to you.